3.20.2012

.fit and fantastic.

so here's the deal.

i am not skinny.

Now I am not saying that I am overweight, but I am saying that I am definitely far from fit.  This has been a very hard pill for me to swallow.  I have NEVER had a problem with my weight or not being "fit"...in high school I was called Ethiopian because I was so skinny just to give you an idea.  After having Becks, I bounced back.  After having Crew, I REALLY bounced back.  I actually weighed less that I did before I got pregnant with Beck.  After Kingsley, there was no bouncing back.

zilch.  nada.  zero. 

I'm not much for taking pics of myself in a swimsuit, so there will be no pics today.  But...I will tell you that I weigh 150 lbs. (my normal weight is 120) and my BMI is well over 20% (normally under 20).  I think there are a lot of "life" factors that have contributed to me gaining the weight, but I'm definitely to the point where I'm over it.  


Last Monday, I went to the gym for the first time in a LONG time.  I did two miles of cardio and my first Zumba class.  Tuesday more cardio and another class.  Wednesday same.  Thursday same.  Friday, I took off.  Saturday I started a Zumba class.  It was in the middle of the Zumba class that I realized if I really want to achieve the results I'm desiring, then dancing around for an hour ain't gonna cut it.

nothing against Zumba.  it was actually a decent work out and I enjoyed it, but I'm looking to build muscle and well, I don't think it's going to happen in a Zumba class.


I walked out of Zumba half way through the class (hadn't even broke a sweat) and walked up the personal trainer desk and looked around at the girls.  I picked the one who I thought had the fittest body, got her attention and just said, "I want you to train me".  10 min and some credit card info. later, I had an appt. set up for tmrw @ 9.  

I'm so excited to have accountability.  I'm so excited to have someone tell me what I need to do.  And I'm so excited to be happy about my body again.  I know that a lot of people would look at me and say that I'm crazy for being insecure about my body, but just because I may be more in shape than some, doesn't mean that I'm automatically supposed to be happy.  My kickboxing teacher told me the other day that skinny people look great in clothes; fit people look great naked.


i want to look good naked.  and i don't.  and i've lost my will to suck it in.

it takes a lot of work to suck it in 24-7, 365 freakin days a year.


so...

as I type this, my workout clothes are washing and I am awaiting for the hubs to get back from the bbq joint down the road.  

don't judge.  one last hoorah never hurt anyone.

I don't believe in depriving myself.  I love food too much to go one some crazy diet.  I thought about juicing all week, but that lasted all of an hour.

so wish me luck and I promise to keep you updated!

xoxoxooo...


all pics via.

20 comments:

Angie said...

Lots and Lots of luck friend!
Babies have a tendency to put the weight on us and it's hard to get off. I had Anika when I was 19 and dropped back down quick. I had Ax at 32 & never went back to normal. Now I'm pregnant with number 3 and can only imagine! Keep us posted with your progress :)

Angie said...

Lots and Lots of luck friend!
Babies have a tendency to put the weight on us and it's hard to get off. I had Anika when I was 19 and dropped back down quick. I had Ax at 32 & never went back to normal. Now I'm pregnant with number 3 and can only imagine! Keep us posted with your progress :)

Angie said...

Lots and Lots of luck friend!
Babies have a tendency to put the weight on us and it's hard to get off. I had Anika when I was 19 and dropped back down quick. I had Ax at 32 & never went back to normal. Now I'm pregnant with number 3 and can only imagine! Keep us posted with your progress :)

Angie said...

Lots and Lots of luck friend!
Babies have a tendency to put the weight on us and it's hard to get off. I had Anika when I was 19 and dropped back down quick. I had Ax at 32 & never went back to normal. Now I'm pregnant with number 3 and can only imagine! Keep us posted with your progress :)

Jeremy and Megan said...

Good for you!! I feel the same, I still have 6 lbs to get back to my pre-preggers weight! I did NOT bounce back either! Much luck with your fitness goals! I started last week and hubby is joining in too! Hopefully that will make it easier!

I don't believe in depriving myself either, I am just going to try some substitutes and healthier options! If you find any good recipes, please share! :)

K said...

I'm all about it doesn't matter what other people think about you, it matters how comfortable you are in your own skin. I think you look great, but none of that is going to matter until you think that too. Good luck!

Shari said...

Good luck and I really love that quote about being skinny vs. being fit. It's so true!

californiadreamin said...

Good luck! You can totally do this. My friend and I hold each other accountable by sending each other a sweaty pic each day to make sure we work out and not use an excuse. Cant wait to hear how it goes!

Elizabeth said...

Good luck hun! A personal trainer is an awesome idea! I was in the best shape of my life when I worked out with a trainer because he would push me to my limits and he gave me incredible motivation. I have never tried Zumba, just doesn't sound like something I would enjoy. I do really love kickboxing though! It will make you tone, no doubt! It is very high intensity and I usually break a sweat in the first ten minutes. You should definitely try a class if you can!

Good luck hun! Can't wait to see your progress!

Melanie said...

You do look great, but good luck getting fit! You will be there in no time, pretty lady!

Renata said...

Good luck, woman - I'm working on the same thing. While I've never considered myself fat by any means, I've been 'soft' for years. I want muscle and strength!

If you ever need any encouragement, just tweet me or email me or something - you've got this, beautiful!

Ali said...

Girl Im with you. I'm about the same amount over my ideal weight. I've also been thinking about hiring a trainer and I've started weight watchers AGAIN. After seeing pictures of myself from Jamaica, I know I NEED this. We could be accountability partners if you'd like?? I think it would be great for both of us! Working out isn't my problem though ... I can work out all day ... I just LOVE food. Anyway, Good luck & I'm here for you if you'd like!

emily said...

So, I just decided I needed to lose30lbs and I joined this online free site called myfitnesspal.com and you can add this cute little badge to your site with your goal and progress. You can keep track of your food and work outs as well. I like it. And good luck :-)

Lindsay said...

you can totally do it!! you will feel amazing! :) as long as you have the determination AND motivation, you will do it.
working out is aprt of my life, i love it. not to the point where i want to be quite yet because of a surgery i had...but im getting there. i am totally with you on, you have to feel good naked! :)

Trish said...

I'm the same way about food. Kill me with a crazy workout, but don't take my cake away!

Mama and her boys said...

I cannot get into the juicing thing. I have friends who LOVE it, but the mama needs substance. I have been trying to do yoga or some sort of work out onDemand when the boys go to bed, but it is so hard finding that initial motivation. Help keep me motivated!!! haha! :)

Lay said...

Good luck! I was mortified when I first posted a photo of myself on my blog, but I figured by doing so, I would have to hold myself accountable if I didn't do something about it. So far it has worked!

Alycia (Crowley Party) said...

I seriously LOVED this. I am going through the same thing currently, just the being tired of the half a** work outs. Truley doing GOOD things for my body. Being healthy, beyond jsut being skinny. being FIT.

The Sweet Life said...

Love this post and I totally agree with the zumba thing. I love it and I think it is great for those who are maintaining, but I'm looking to tone and strengthen and zumba isn't going to cut it. I have done so well with going to the gym up until Spring break started and I went on vacation, but I have felt so blah all week and I know it's because my body is used to working out and eating healthier so next week, I'm buckling down again!!!

.::Brown Eyed Beauty::. said...

At first I thought the girl in the pics was you and I was gonna call you crazy lol.

I weight about the same as you and am on the same journey!

Best of lucky lady! Good for you for starting the get fit adventure :)